“It may be more sensible and better to deal with what you hate about yourself
By accepting it and surrendering yourself to it
Rather than trying to clear it or rewrite subconsciousness that supports it.”
This was the topic of today’s meditation meeting.
It was surprising, yet I knew there was some truth in it.
During the meditation
I watched many emotions and thoughts come and go
Like a bubble in the sea
Sadness, Anxiety, anger, unworthiness, meaninglessness, unfairness, jealousy, a sense of overwhelming…
Then something inside of me changed.
It is one of my biggest belief that “I cannot say what I want to say”
“I cannot make myself understood well”
Instead of having them as shortcomings,
These beliefs are the genuine proof that
I have been seriously trying to master communication on Earth.
Past memories in this life
Memories of past lives and
from when I existed somewhere in the universe
There are many patterns that I have repeated countless times
“I cannot say what I want to say”
“I cannot make myself understood well”
No matter hard I try to clear and release these beliefs
I feel that I cannot clear and release them from me.
But
When I stopped intending to release them
when I stopped intending to rewrite my subconsciousness
and when I just observed my mind without any intention nor judgement,
such as
“I cannot say what I want to say – oh, I remember one time when …”
“I cannot make myself understood well – oh, I also remember I have repeated similar patterns in my life recently.”
I started to feel that my heart started to release something in it one by one.
I felt relieved, and started to breathe again…I started to feel alive again!
Our emotions and thoughts come and go
As long as we live on this planet
They are like bubbles in the ocean
That arise and disappear again and again
Buddha said that
In order to release attachment
We should look into the thing that we are attached
And accept that that was a part of us
Anger, unworthiness, jealousy…
Another item that arisen in the Meditation meeting was that
What we call Inner-Child
Need not to be healed immediately, but
We can pay attention to our Inner-child
When it arises.
It is also like bubbles in the ocean.
It comes and goes.
We pay attention to it without any intention nor judgement.
We watch them come and go.
Human consciousness (and subconscious) is vast
And Itself is a universe within us.
It is us
Who decide which direction we go
In the vast and never-ending universe
Riding on a spaceship
Watching the shooting stars and meteorites come and go
And sometimes we need to change direction in order to avoid some obstacles
Without no sense of direction as there is not above and under, front and back nor right and left
In the universe.
Where do we want to go?
What do we want to do?
How do you want to get there?
With whom do we want to do something together?
What do we want to feel?
What do we want to obtain?
We can decide all of them by ourselves for ourselves.
In order to be able to make a good judgement
In order to be able to feel confident in our judgement
We are going to notice and heal our Inner-child
Who was badly wounded and has become fearful of moving forward.
Our wounded Inner-child is healed and released.
Now our creative life will begin for us.
That is what our souls have been truly looking for.
The work of Inner-child is not only about deep healing within us
But also about us looking for and living in the creative life
(From Alana Child – Australian Spiritual worker)
Please take a moment to look at your inner self as it is.
You will be surprised how simple it is yet profound in its effects on your heart and soul.
This Inner-child element is also very important in my Theta Healing Practice
And the insight I obtained in today’s meditation meeting has broadened my approach in my practice.
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